Five years.

Yesterday was the five-year anniversary of losing sweet Max.  He was the best dog.  Deciding to let him go and the subsequent grief that followed were some of the hardest days of my life.  But now, the grief has long faded.  Now, thoughts of him warm my soul, even memories of my last days with him bring me smiles.  I didn’t wake up yesterday knowing it was the five-year mark.  It just came to me during they day. He enters my mind often, and I feel so blessed each and every time.

Today I woke up and I thanked Melvin.  I didn’t see it back then but Melvin is a key reason I moved forward.  I really had no choice.  Melvin had only been mine two months when we lost Max so I’m not even sure Melvin noticed Max was gone.  He woke up that next morning, FULL OF EXUBERANCE and he needed walked.  That September walk turned into December turned into March turned into June. Life is meant to move forward.

I have said before, that I probably got Melvin for all the wrong reasons, I knew Max was going to leave this world and I knew if I didn’t have a dog when that happened, I would wait too long and feel too much guilt looking for one.  But Melvin’s mug shot on the rescue site made me feel love at first sight and I knew the wrong reason had led me to the right dog.

Wishing you a wonderful weekend!

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16 thoughts on “Five years.

  1. We just lost our 15 year old girl on Monday and my heart has been broken. She was a mama’s girl and I loved her so much. She waited for me to come home from work so that I would be with her when she left. I understand how you feel. We also have two boys and they know that she is gone and they have been my reason to get up and go forward. I hope that in time my heart will stop hurting and like you, I will be able to look back and feel comfort instead of loss.

    • Aw, I am so, so sorry. These are the days when you can hardly believe it will get easier, especially since some days it feels even heavier than the day before. Our love for them (and theirs for us) is magical. Sending you virtual hugs and love.

  2. I had two dogs growing up that very much touched my life and made me the crazy dog lady I am today. My older brother warned me, “No matter how much you love those dogs, the love for a dog of your very own when you have your own place and your own life is so much more.” He was totally right – I have never loved a dog like I love Rufus. I am sure losing Max was a telling moment for you but I am so very glad Melvin was there to cushion the fall. He seems like the perfect pillow for just that 🙂

  3. Such a beautiful post, and I love that picture of Max and Melvin together. I am so happy that Melvin was there for you when you lost Max. Dogs just have a special way of moving their humans forward.

  4. Even though they might not be here in a physical sense, they are always in your heart and your soul. I am so happy that you found Melvin – it was meant to be – and now you have Jake as well. Max – wherever dogs go – is probably looking down and is so happy that you have Melvin and Jake to love you just like he did.

  5. You know, a lot of people say that getting a dog to get over the death of another dog is a bad reason to adopt, but I think it is the perfect way to honor that dog’s life and begin to move forward. It’s not that you are forgetting the dog that died, but you are honoring his/her memory by saving the life of another deserving dog. I’m glad you can look back now and smile, as opposed to still hurting over the loss. Max sounds like an awesome dog, and I’m glad you still have photos all over your house to remind you of him!

  6. your special dogs stay with you always. I have been preceded in my home of homes by some fabulous canines that have left big pawprints to try to follow in. But they have all led my Mom Person to me and I am grateful for that. She still sees St Gretta sometimes. In the shadows. St Gretta follows us on walks sometimes. I’m happy to have her along. Max led you to Melvin. And look what that has meant to your life.

  7. I greived so much after losing my 12 year old, Bonnie. I waited 6 months before adopting another dog and it was the best decision that I could have made in terms of moving forward. So glad Melvin was there for you!

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