I know the first several months with Melvin were hard. I don’t really recall each and every specific about the difficulties but I do recall crying and being overwhelmed and there being looming uncertainty. Most of that was health related (that part lasted years and even still continues) but those first few months, homeboy was no gem in the behavior area. But we moved forward and he got easier and I’m sure he feels the same way about me. Now, I swear, he needs food, me and access to the outdoors for bathroom breaks. He is so easy that sometimes I don’t spend as much time on him as I should. I doubt he notices but it certainly haunts me a little. Just typing that part makes me laugh, I never thought Melvin would be the dog I considered ‘easy’. He and I have been to the vet together at least 500 times.
Jake, is different. Jake came with behavior issues too but the moment we came out of that rough patch, he started having spinal issues, wonky legs and needed fashion diapers. There has really been very little sense of moving forward with him. He is in many ways, going backwards, and that will probably continue throughout his life. I have no experience with this and the trial and error can be frustrating. For example, Jake went through five beds last night (for three different issues). Five. I did laundry from 1am to 6am. I had plenty of time to think as I was pleading for sleep to come rescue me and I finally realized something I’d been a bit clueless about:
Jake is Benjamin Button.
As Jake goes from adult to toddler, I have to move us forward in some capacity. I think writing about our experiences helps with that. Am I tired today? Yes, so tired. Is this post about failure? No. We made it through the night and I have a
mediocre somewhat solid plan for nights to come. The beds are cleaned and ready for another night, even if it’s a night of battle. But if you need us this evening, call before 7pm because we will be asleep by 7:01. Warriors need their rest.